Live a slow life to feel paradise she said to me. She was always a fountain of truth (and youth). All the others lied but she never did. So why did I leave? I don't know. No other option I suppose.
After 15 months we met again in a lost city that no one knows about. After so long she was mostly the same. She looked better, healthier. She was way more confident and comfortable. Her English was better.
When I went to go get her so many years ago she was just a little girl really. She didn't know anything, just a bit of English. She was 20 years old but 20 years old in Vietnam years is a lot like 15 years old in US time.
Back then she didn't know anything. She'd never owned a refrigerator. She'd freeze our food every single day and thaw it every single day to cook it. She couldn't tell a taxi driver where to go because she didn't know how.
It's not her fault, she had zero experience. Hamburgers and hotels? Get real. I bought her her very first pair of sunglasses. All her life was spent with her mom in the poor part of town.
She was blank and that's exactly what I wanted, a blank canvas to paint my own picture. I knew I was entering a phase that no grown female could tolerate. I lived like a monk. I was obsessed. I barely spoke. I saved all of my words for the work. I was a freak. I was born a freak but I carefully nurtured it as well.
I'd look in your eyes and burn a hole in you. I was seething. I just was. If I was able to fall asleep I'd dream of smashing N__'s head into a brick wall repeatedly. Just over and over and it would last all night. I'd wake up and only 5 minutes had passed.
All these years people think I was alone. Get real. If I was alone I didn't know how I could tolerate it. I'm a crazy person when I'm alone. I don't care about myself I only care about other people. When I don't have anyone to care about I self-destruct. So I wasn't alone, but my mind was on fire.
Look into my eyes and you didn't see a human. You saw intensity looking through you, not at you. I'm slightly calmer today, but back then? If I looked at you I'd burn a hole in your soul. I. Will. Burn. A. Hole. In. You. I will eat your soul because it's either yours or mine and it won't be mine. Get it? I had to get it all out. I didn't go out. I didn't have friends and I didn't want them. All I wanted to do was burn holes in souls.
I needed someone at home to take care of me. I need the opposite of me. There is no balance in me. It does not exist. I'm pedal to the metal. The god of war lives in me. My intensity is completely unrivaled. I needed complete calm in my daughter. Back then I was so angry. I needed someone to take care of me. Like a mom? All these years and you still don't know me. She's my daughter not my mother.
Demons came to me in my sleep and I needed her to protect me. She was there before I made a million dollars, she was around when I was down to my last $500 when she got stuck in Cambodia on a botched visa run. She was there the day I stopped worrying about money. She was there when 4 grand was enormous to me.
All these years now she is the only one who was ever true for me. Everybody else lied to me and I can't get over being lied to. I trust everybody because I trust myself. I hate liars like I hate being on fire. I want to set every single liar on fire. I hate all of them and I make all comfortable liars uncomfortable.
She is the only one who ever said the truth to me. She was there to protect me, not the other way around. A poor girl from Vietnam who never had a chance in life and now her passport is stamped more than yours. No one but her mom and me ever cared about her.
One time she got lost in Cambodia, she was so scared when she called me crying, saying they wouldn't let her back into Thailand. I wasn't scared at all. I am strong like concrete and I found a way to get her home. She could have been kidnapped and sold into slavery and I could have lost her forever. They would have killed her pretty quickly when they found out she was soft and sweet like a child not hard like a whore.
No one but me appreciates her kindness and happy spirit. Thankfully she is always safe because I would strangle anyone who hurt her and I would stare in your eyes while doing it. I would strangle ten men easy. It's not skill, it's will and I have the will to kill for her. Feelings? Nah, just killings.
I walked the streets of Bangkok one night after she left to take out the garbage and never came back, hoping I would not find her body floating in the river. I found her an hour later crying by the pool. I looked at her hard and said don't ever do that again, then I hugged her and let her cry on my chest. She's my fountain of youth and truth.
You can't hang with me if you lie. You just can't. I will set all liars on fire. If you lie to me I will use my words like gasoline and I will make you burn. I will set you on fire and I will make you hurt. I eat your lies like breakfast and I spit fire back into your face, you cowards. A little white lie is still a lie.
Yes, I'll eat your soul but I'll never lie about it. I'll look right into your eyes and tell you to your face that I will eat your soul. Like every word that comes out of my mouth, I mean it. My words are gasoline, lie to me and I will spit them in your face and set you on fire. A little white lie is the worst kind of lie because it's the lie of a coward. I will bully every coward until they stop lying or until they run away and die.
You ever notice that couples look like each other? Miserable. People look at us and become confused. We're so different, how could that be? It's simple really. You ever see the yin and yang? That's what we are. I am intensity personified and she is the opposite. Without my yang I am insane. You can't be with me if you have attitude, I have enough for the both of us. Live a slow life to feel paradise she said to me, of course it's true. Will I do it? I sure doubt it.
I am not a human being, but she is and that's good enough for me. If she can live in paradise I will live in hell. Just don't leave me alone, like she always said to me. How could I? There are no others. They are all disgusting liars. It's just her and me, don't you see? It's just you and me. So why did I leave her alone? Because the way to heaven is straight through hell. Or maybe I don't know. I'm a castaway, that's all I can say, and to be alive sometimes you have to go die. Rebirth comes with a price.
You have to leave me alone when I'm working. If you break my flow I will eat your soul. For a lot of ladies that's real hard to deal with. That's why I don't deal with ladies, I like girls who have nowhere else to go. It's easy to develop the patience of a saint if you've got nowhere else to go.
If you knew her real name you'd never doubt me. Meant to be, and impossible to be an accident. Nothing ever happens to me by accident. I've been guided by the Tao this whole time. When I left the Tao I lost my way. Like they say in the movies, I went off the reservation. But one thing I never did was tell a lie. I am the most honest human being on earth. Can't handle it? Good. Get the fuck out of my way. Go away and burn to death.
I accept all people on earth but I don't accept liars. That leaves only her and I. Everyone else tells me lies. I push you all and you all crumble like cowards. A little Vietnamese girl is stronger than all of you because she tells me the truth, especially when it's hard to say and hard to hear.
I live hard and it's not possible to live hard with little white liars, so concerned with feelings, like legal aged children but worse. Children haven't learned to lie like you. So what is there to say or do? Set yourself on fire I suppose. Who knows, you might kill that coward in you. If it's too hard to set yourself on fire, just tell a little white lie to me and I'll do it for you. For me, destruction of comfortable liars is just easy. Like the Prodigy said, I'm the twisted firestarter and if you ever tell a little white lie to me I will set you on fire and I won't even stick around to watch you burn. Comfortable liars make me uncomfortable so I gotta go, Joe.
What did I just read? Ok Vic, I will never lie again. Whoops, just lied!
“What did I just read?”
A new B&D instant classic.
‘Tis was intense. Read it again.
Thanks Ru.
Fun read. You sound like me.
Thank you Ash.
Hi Nick , how about all the time when you said your name was Victor Pride when it’s in fact Nick Kelly? Also please check out this poll: https://newpollz.com/index.php/entertainment/celebrities/1938-does-victor-pride-look-like-jim-carrey-from-me-myself-and-irene
Peace
He said before that Victor Pride was a pseudonym…over two years ago in Spartan Entrepreneur. No lies I can see.
Hi Marcus, but I remember in his post he said something along the lines of “Okay no more lies, my name is Nick Kelly etc.”
I truly respect Victor and I always absorb from him what is useful and reject what is useless. But him saying he is the most honest human being on earth is like Trump saying he never said anything bad about China’s currency manipulation.
You’re missing the point of both the Victor Pride psuedonym and this post so hard it hurts.
“A little Vietnamese girl is stronger than all of you because she tells me the truth, especially when it’s hard to say and hard to hear.”
Well I guess that makes me a little Vietnamese girl lol
RIGHT ON!
I like that angst. You still on that TRT? Haven’t felt like you do for a few years. I miss it.
Thanks Richard.
Also I want to add one more thing.
When was the last time you told the truth to VP?
Last time I did was in one of his latest YouTube videos. Know what I commented? “You are amazing but you need to drop the mouth and tongue noises, it’s gross”
What did he do? He never made those noises the the following videos, you can even see he is making a conscious effort not to.
I think he should just drop the name “Pride” because no man who subtly accepts criticism the way he does can be selfish.
can recognize conviction and selflessness when I see it in action. Even when he is a the top he accepts truth and he is still is willing to work on himself at a time where virtually everybody is kissing his ass and telling him he is the best.
Watch how his YouTube channel explodes in the next year.
I love to see winners win, even if they end up hating me in the short term.
Never saw that comment, nor would I have listened. There is a difference between being honest and being rude.
Of course not Vick :P
You know the difference between honesty & rudeness? rof,lmao! You wouldn’t recognize honesty or truth if it spit in your face. I can’t believe I’m wasting time posting. But I’m mad as hell at myself & all the other idiots who really believe the vitriole you spew out of your head. The truth you so dearly love is YOUR “truth”. I can’t believe there are people like you who are allowed to walk around among real humans. Where did you slither out from? You are cold-blooded, have no empathetic feeling for anyone but yourself. You need someone to take care of you, alright, but not the way you want to be taken care of. KNOW WHAT I MEAN, VIC ? This is from the strong, proud white woman.
When you have an enormous feeling of joy after you see a new release.
Thanks Jo.
This article made me feel as if I was experiencing everything that I read. I felt like I was in Cambodia with only $500 in my bank account. Later I felt as if I walked through Bangkok and returned to a girl crying on my chest.
Truth always reaches through the words. I too am someone who goes crazy when I don’t have someone to help. I’ve tried to fight that as it ends up making people use me. After this article I can see clearly how to do it now.
Find one person, do the work, and live the life.
Correct.
So, you are basically admitting that no white woman with self-respect will support your lifestyle, and therefore, you resorted to the services of a poor Asian girl like the rest of the white men from the manosphere?
I have new for you, Pride. You will never feel TRULY happy with Asians as a white man.
They want you for your whiteness and money. You want them for their obedience.
Eventually, the combination results in something that isn’t pretty.
I can see that you are lonely.
You are rich now. Drop that Spartan lifestyle and get a white woman.
In my opinion, that little girl was/is a lie – you lie to yourself that this is what you want.
Being a white man in Asia is playing life on EZ mode when it comes to girls, but there’s a catch.
You are never happy because you don’t belong there.
Cry more.
Stop telling folks to cry more. They’re not crying. You can’t see through your own tears, man. You cry for yourself. YOU cry more.
Cry more Deborah.
“You are never happy because you don’t belong there.”
Only the expats that live long enough in Asia come to realize this.
That is why after 3 years in Thailand I came back to Europe
Hey “the circle” you talk some shit buddy… I myself am married to an very rich Thai woman from Issan… She is with me because she likes that I am a real man, not some bastard who treats women like a lot of Thai men. I bring close to nothing to the table except she loves me and our kids, and that Im a conservative man…(not a new age, pussified man-boy..) She could have married other rich men but she chose me, in the same way that Victor chose his girl from Vietnam… This bond is much stronger than one that is pretentious… Its out of necessity… Oh and you obviously don’t know your ass from a hole in the ground when it comes to Asian women… Obedient couldn’t be further from the reality…
As long as Vic follows the Childfree Lifestyle as prescribed by (((Time Magazine))), we should have no issue with his Honda Civic Nationalism.
TheCircle, jealous much? “You are never happy because you don’t belong there.” Classic line from a jealous butthurt close minded guy. Heard it a million times from guys saying the same shit to me as a white guy living in India. It’s not hard to pick girls who aren’t just after “whiteness and money.”
HOLD ON TO HER VIC. It is a Disaster out here with most modern women. Finding a girl like what you just described, is nearly Impossible in the states now a days.
“Finding a girl like what you just described, is nearly Impossible in the states now a days.”
Yeah, it’s pretty nasty there tbh.
Really, Duke? It’s a disaster here because you can’t find a subservient to worship you like you think Vic has? Hold on there, buster. You don’t like modern women. How do you think women got “modern”? Did you grow up here? How old are you? Did you sleep through US history & Social Studies classes? Do you know about the women’s lib movement? Would you have women at home cleaning your castle, raising your kids, catering to your every whim without question? Ain’t gonna happen here, bub. You MEN caused this beautiful disaster, as you call it. You want a woman like Vic’s, go where he is, do the work, live the life. We fought for & won every single, teeny right we have, fingernail by fingernail, bub. We had (and still have to) put your big boy pants on, go to work in the factories to pt food on the table while men had to (and still do, oh, yeah, & so do WOMEN) go fight wars. By God, we are modern, no thanks to men like you who would have us with no voice, no vote, no living wage, no property. You want chattel. You won’t find it here. We took off our aprons, got out of the kitchen, went to work to keep this country you enjoy going so our husbands, sons & brothers would have a country & a home to come back to. They appreciated it. You men today are babies. We are modern women. We are strong. We had good models that served to show us what caring humans are NOT. MEN like you. God did not create Woman from Man’s rib to be beneath him, but to be his equal, side to side. Helpmate, not slave. Equal to, not beneath.Get it, knuckle head?
I’ll get off my soapbox & you can dream about Vic’s kind of woman.
Just a random thought-has anyone considered that Victor Pride posts inflammatory shit just to get people commenting back & forth espousing their crap (me included, sorry to say) ? Isn’t that exactly what he is doing? He’s not stupid totally. He’s making a lot of people a lot poorer by doing exactly what we’re doing.
So funny. I told my wife years ago that if she ever died, I’d go to Thailand or Vietnam to find a wife because I can’t find honest women over here.
My wife is a redneck. No, not the city slicker wannabe fake ones, but the real deal. She always tells the truth, and that offends 99% of Northern Californians.
I love her for it. I love honesty, because I’d rather live in reality than fabricated bullshit.
Geez. I really need to buy NWR. 30 Days of Discipline was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had, and it seems like Victor’s getting even better (which is hard to do – it’s like Judas Priest putting out a better album than Screaming for Vengeance or Pink Floyd putting out a better album than Dark Side of the Moon).
OK, when I get back from the recording studio next week, I’m buying NWR…
Thanks Roman.
All this bullshit about how to be successful when you are seeking a fucking gook wife, pissing away your genetic inheritance. You are a fraud.
Ten gook females will always be worth less than the toenail of a single aryan godess, and you know it unless you are a complete failure. Breed with a white woman, Vik, or your line will be finished.
Oh wait if you did that you might have to actually work for a living to support her and your legitimate European offspring. We cant have that now, carry on.
Cry more.
this is why Victor women in the US remain single into their 30;s or more.
Dude honestly what the fuck. If he likes her, he likes her. Who cares if she’s Asian.
“godess” haha
Hahahaha,
That’s excactly what’s wrong with women’s attitudes these days they REALLY think they are all princesses and ‘godesses’ and deserve to be treated in every way like that.
If I would find a real feminine women like Vic did I would do excactly the same. Love is what is requires not ‘genetic offspring’ go cry more Hitler.
Sebastian, what are you, some kind of nut? I might take you people seriously if you could spell. “Godesses”, really? Doesn’t your spellcheck work? Go look on your Kraft Green Goddess Dressing, & then spell “goddesses” correctly. DUDE! We don’t want to be treated like the princesses & goddesses we are. We just want you gods to show some respect R E S P E C T !
We are feminine, soft & warm. Most of us who have an attitude problem got tired of being abused, misused & have seen our sisters killed at the hands of abusive men. Some of us are lucky enough to have had good husbands. They are like the Marines. There are a “few good men” out there. Very few. I don’t think you are one of them.
Very sweet love story, Vic. My advice to you would be to take liars more easy. This world is a school, and we have to deal with all lessons with a calm attitude. See lies as math problems which you’ve to solve. Every big talent is compensated with a big vice. I don’t mean more compassion with liars, but there are people who can live almost without sleep and food, but they can’t stop constantly lying. It’s very very hard for them to control it. So as long as they make just little lies, it’s ok for them.
Thanks Aleks.
Oh, Geez! Why can’t we all just get along?
Felt this one burning in my soul. Brings me back to two years ago, back when I was living in hell and the Tao led me to discover your blog.
Your words ignited a fire in my soul and gave me the confidence I needed to drop out of school, quit my job, move to Thailand and pursue my dreams.
Two years later I can undoubtedly say this is simply how it was meant to be.
I am forever grateful.
Thanks Tim.
I’m happy for you, Tim, really. Anyone who can find happiness & what they think is love, go for it.
Did you renounce your US citizenship? I hope so. Bring her to the states, BOOM, she’ll be out the fromt door & on her way to becoming free.
I love liars because you always know what to expect.
I do too. I lied in this article about not liking them, they’re usually pleasant, well-adjusted people.
The great Victor Pride lied in the article about not liking liars? The most honest human being on earth lied?
Crawfishin’ your way out of that, aren’t you? Afraid that might affect the Bottom Line?
“The great Victor Pride”
I am great Deborah, thanks!
I’ve enjoyed your posts to date, but you seem to contradict yourself. Before you only ate steaks and eggs and didn’t believe in interracial dating/ having mixed kids, now you’re talking about a Vietnamese g friend and I’m guessing you don’t eat steak and eggs all day every day. There is probably some white kid with a heart condition dating a white chick he doesn’t like now.
Cry more.
Oh wow big surprise that Mr. Bold can’t handle the truth about being a race-traitor cuck. Just understand that if you make little slant eyed babies over there, you’ll be genetically closer to any random white child than your own. This makes you a literal cuck, raising some other man’s genes, favouring them ahead of your own. Truth hurts, faggot, but it is still the truth.
Cry more.
Cant possibly be more honest than I am. I haven’t told a lie to anyone in 25 years and thats probably why I don’t have any friends. People love lies and despise the truth. If you are always truthful you will die lonely and that is the real truth.
“People love lies and despise the truth.”
Yes, you are 100% correct.
You are overrating this woman.
I launched Tinder in Thailand and every second swipe was a match.
In my country, I get 1% of that. Why?
What is the differance?
The differance is that in my country there are many men similar to me. I am not special. I compete against peopel from the same league.
In Asia, white people have an advantage among some women – usually the lower class.
Why is that?
Because the Asian woman associates the white man with wealth and status. Any loser white man can benefit from that.
The white woman has a HIGHER standards – feminist or not.
You can’t deny that.
Moreover, your woman was not educated child, which speak about her incredibly low social status.
Pride, you could have been replaced by ANY other white man. She would have done the same.
The Asian woman loves the white men for his money, or illusion thereof.
The white men loves the asian woman because she is obedient, tight and easy to toss around.
This is 10000% the truth.
Anyone can see it.
“The white men loves the asian woman because she is obedient, tight and easy to toss around.”
Correct.
If that is so, then how come she convinced you to finally tell us about her? I think you are the one being tossed around.
Cry more.
Vic, Nick, Rick, dick, or whatever, you just said you like the Asian women-obedient, tight & easy to toss around. White men like Asian women. You are not a white man then.
How can something this Badass be written with such Poetry.
I.Will.Burn.A.Hole.In.You.
This is the most intense article I have ever read on Bold and Determined. Ever.
I am out of words.
Thank you Moses.
Haters are like energy drinks to me so I can only imagine what they do for you.
I am a white guy that married a Filipina, have 3 kids and she is such a good little soldier. I know that race is only in the conversation due to the context of the post, but I am truly amazed at the amount of vitriol being spewed out here. Instead of hating on Victor, how about you get to work on your business and live in full colour?
Victor, keep it up and don’t let the haters get you down. I know you don’t but it felt good typing it.
“Victor, keep it up and don’t let the haters get you down.”
I love the haters, they’re the only way you know you’re doing something right.
Like you said in one of the later Full Color episodes. Load was the Metallica album that pushes away many fans, but theynlater realized the truth. The same os happening here with the haters. Yin and yang.
Ooioooooowwwwlllll!
Live slowly and in full color, I love it. As for Victor’s choice, we all need someone we can curl into, he found his.
I never found mine, or did and threw it away, not knowing. All I want now is to be fed, fucked and left alone.
I love the intensity and honesty, Uncle Nick. Thank you for continuing to guide me and inspire me.
Thank you David.
I wish I had a father like you. I never knew mine.
Well at least I have your books so it’s better than nothing.
(BOAS is greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat)
Nice article btw, with great writting. But I couldn’t handle a whole book written with this intensity.
“I wish I had a father like you.”
In spirit, you do. Thank you.
Great read! Really filled in some of the holes about your time in Asia.
Still waiting on that Red-Growth and Red-Focus tho…
Thanks Bryan. Red Growth will not be released, Red Focus can be found right here: https://redsupplements.com/product/red-focus/
captivating
Thanks Losart.
Uncle Nick,
reading the comments…damn so many haters, fuck em’
your a legend brother, always have been always will be.
i can’t wait until high energy entrepreneur comes out.
please keep killing it, this article was great, reminds me of a sweet mexican girl i had when i was living there…but i had not committed to my own goals enough.
at this point i’m on the steak and eggs diet and following the BOAS routine and seeing serious results, it’s incredible the Difference Commiting to the lifestyle change makes.
you the man,
RhinoRyan
Thanks RhinoRyan.
Didn’t understand nothing. Let’s buy NWR.
“Let’s buy NWR.”
Correct.
Hey, great Thailand sex tourism story!
Thanks Axel!
Hey Uncle Vic,
this is a beautiful article, it truly resonates with me. Personally, after a heavy gym session, I also stare thru people’s eyes. Although I use the gym to let out my angst, I’m so high-strung that even after the gym I can easily bite someone’s head off if they bullshit me.
And I completely understand your wanting and needing a sweet Asian chick. I used to date a Chinese college chick and she was the sweetest and most feminine girl that I’ve ever been with.
And lastly fuck the haters, they’re just fuel to your fire Vic!
Thanks Bence!
The best article you have written IMNSHO. And that among a blog full of great writing. With this and your previous article about sunrises and Lady Buddha, you can tell you are back where you belong.
Thank you.
This is art. Thank you.
Thank you Sam.
What makes you think anyone OWES you the damn truth? If you’re honest with others, they’re honest with you.
Big words from a guy that’s made a measly million dollars and been with an impoverished Asian. Great accomplishment mate.
Thank your stars that you kept your “anger” in check, because if you roam the earth trying to “eat souls” you will have yours crushed one day. Check. That. Ego.
You will strangle ten men? You delusional clown. Try that if you ever go to prison. Or try getting on the bad side of a 2 metre tall Russian brute.
You talk like you’re a world leader in power or earnings, but the simple reality is you are nowhere close to either. One million dollars? In four whole years? Freakin chump change that might build you a fancy shack in ladyboy land.
Enjoy your beta fanboys on your blog, because that’s as far as you’ll ever get. Try this attitude with REAL powerful, untouchable beasts out there and they will put you in your place if you as much as look at them wrong, forget staring through them.
Cry more, baby. Cry more.
Cry more.
TheJudge, you speak a lot but you don’t really say much. According to you, 4 years is way too long to make a million dollars? Really, please, please send me the unfathomable wisdom of the ages where you have figured out how to make a million dollars in less than 4 years. Where’s your magic secret bruh?
Then you shit talk Asian women as if they’re trash. There are trashy women all over the fucking world man. I’ve fucked my way into the triple digits of US pussy and all women can be trash so where you think asians have a monopoly on it, I do not know.
Maybe Nick has made a million or maybe he hasn’t but one cannot deny that his blog has reached a sizable amount of people, including myself who have found much solace in his words.
I fail to see where your accomplishments are TheJudge? What have you done? What have you accomplished? Judging by the tone of your post, you really haven’t done much and you seem to be very angry about that.
I’m not going to tell you to cry more. I’m gonna tell you to go fuck yourself. Your not a judge, you’re sad,pathetic fuck. A dickless, limp-wristed nothing that no one will miss, that no one even knows exists.
I love B&D articles like this. It’s astonishing when Victor drops his solid shield and show us his human and vulnerable side. Congratulations.
About this… I’d like to know your current opinion about if it’s better to have a loyalty and lovely girl by your side, or a geisha who takes care of your necessities… but without romance and compromise.
Thanks Sebastian.
Try love and loyalty. If TSHTF she’ll be there to wipe you off; the geisha will run squalling that you got her kimono dirty. Then you’ll have to train someone else.
Inspiring read, Vic. Been reading your articles for years. New World Ronin was simple and to-the-point, and even though I only read it once, it’s awesome how some of the teachings are always in my head. May you continue to succeed and inspire in the future.
Unrelated though, I wanted to ask you – what do you think about bullies? Many of us are strong men today but as kids we were weak and defenseless, and bullies enjoyed pushing us around. How do you let go of bad childhood memories of being bullied and insulted for no reason? Payback isn’t always an option, but you do sometimes wish you could go back in time and defend yourself…
I’d really appreciate your valued input on this, thank you!
Thanks Dan. I might touch on the bully question soon.
This is fire fucking material, no lies. Stay up gangster.
Thanks DblG
Hi Vic,
Thanks for this post. After leaving Thailand and years of devoted Taoist practice, somehow I went of the path and was miserable as fuck. Liars and fakes everywhere. Took me a while to find my way back. Good to know that there is more of us.
Thanks
Thanks Andre.
Most people cant handle solitude because they are forced to confront all the lies that have made up their life! This is why most people spend every minute of their lives “busy” and surrounded by other idiots that make them feel okay! This article read like the climax scene in an epic book, i could not avert my eyes from the page! Its a beautiful story and a great reminder how important it is who we surround ourselves with and what we tolerate. Thanks for the continued inspiration and hard hitting content all these years!
Thanks Knowah.
You must have been on LSD writing this. Seriously weird post.
Thanks for the great article. I’ve been exactly where you are. I have an adorable lady from Hong Kong who started with nothing and is my polar opposite and bringing much balance. All the best Vic.
Thanks Phil.
Wow!
Couple things.
Great post Nick. Your head is in the right spot with this chick. A long time ago, a former navy seal turned wisdom spouting barfly said “Never waste your time with a woman you’re not willing to fight the whole bar for.”
I’ve thought about that quote every single day.
To many effete men just grab at any pussy that’s willing to fuck them and they get into trouble.
A man who isn’t willing to fight for his woman isn’t willing to stay and raise kids with her, he isn’t willing to hit the shit and go broke with her and he isn’t there for the long term.
I’ve been with all races of women and I enjoyed all of them so these racist fucks commenting “Get yourself and aryan goddess” can blow me.
A man; a REAL man, knows what the fuck he wants and makes no excuses for wanting that.
She sounds like a great girl Nick, congrats to you.
Thanks Joey.
This post is awesome and really illustrates the truth about that type of girl. I know because I’ve been there and experienced that both here in America and in the Vietnamese Jungle. It’s crazy to me how you’ve lived your life Victor because it’s exactly the way that I have wanted to live but was too cowardly to make it happen because I thought I might not be able to make it as an entrepreneur.
When you wrote “I push you all and you all crumble like cowards” I feel like you are talking directly at me! You’re right. It’s time that I put my money where my mouth is because I need that life. I don’t have a choice anymore; I have to rise above my corporate slavery and master myself B&D style, or die. That’s it. It’s do or die for me. I’ve been listening to you for years now Victor but never made my move and it’s my fault. The only reason that I work a j.o.b. that disgusts me is because I say so.
I wish I could somehow communicate this better but basically I want to do it the way that you have Victor. As always, thank you for your work and that endless motivation.
Thank you Cody.
Wow.
Nick your blog posts make me always think in a complete other perspective and therefore my actions are changing consistently.
Shogun of B&D World…thank you Nick.
Thanks Marcello.
I’ve never been with the type of girl described. But I know what it’s like to be with impatient girls always on their phone.
Constantly need to be entertained like I’m a summer camp counselor or some shit.
Always anxious if their lives aren’t looking exciting enough for instagram/snapchat.
This is a good post, feels like Victor 2.0 is coming out.
I can tell you’re stretching yourself as an artist lately and trying new things, I have a lot of respect for that.
But to offer one tiny comment, I miss how direct the old work was. It feels like a lot of things get repeated lately, perhaps on purpose?
Anyway keep up the good work, still a fan!
Thank you DJ.
Captivating article. A different, poetic side being shown here.
Thank you David.
Wow Victor your writing improved massively over the years.
Writing is really your medium!
Liars suck. Your words resonate with Vic.
Keep those posts up. They are unique and not the bullshit you see mostly nowadays.
Thank you Dan.
The timing of this post was crazy. I spent the last month going crazy figuring out why things were not working. Ways of the New World Ronin and Gorilla Mindset couldn’t comprehend what I was going through. It was ROUGH.
Last month, a woman lie to me. It sucked.
Since then, I made various attempts at getting with the girls here in Korea and I was worse off than before.
Last week, I met a Chinese girl and we agreed to spend some time together. She agreed then flaked the next day because, “my friend’s boyfriend broke up with her and she needs me. Let’s reschedule.”
I had the intent to make her my girl but I didn’t tell her then. After all of that, I looked up a translation of that excuse was and I found the books “No More More Mr. Nice Guy” and “No More Christian Nice Guy”. I read both within a week and it showed me something that I was missing: telling the truth.
I see China girl the next week and she has her BOYFRIEND with her. I thought my actions made it clear that I wanted to be with her one on one. She didn’t realize it. After reading NMMNC, it occurred to me that I needed to be up front with the girls with confidence and gusto.
For years, i’ve lied to myself and to others about my intent with them (whether for business or pleasure). Since reading those books and going back to the ways of the NWR and Gorilla Mindset, things made much more sense.
I learned how to balance my full color and b&w work.
I worked on my breathing.
I remembered my God-given purpose.
Liars suck but they served the purpose of bettering myself.
Thanks Victor.
Thanks for sharing Shaun.
Like Cernovich says, your haters tell a lot about you. The people throwing shade at this article are the absolute last kind of people you’d want to call your allies, let alone your peers.
Roaches scatter in the light, so it’s not surprising that they can’t abide full color either.
Thanks for the post.
Thanks Justin.
Absolue Fire.
Thanks Mike.
Hey Victor, was communication ever an issue between you and her (with her limited English) and how did you get around it?
It’s an issue if you make it an issue. It isn’t if it isn’t.
Have you ever made it an issue?
No.
Instant classic.
You are a living legend.
Thanks Don.
You’re one of the few American bloggers I will appreciate for honesty. Let alone, having had grown balls in real time that I never seen much where I live in Soweto, South Africa.
You have been raising me, you know that? And throughout all of it, I live in peace because of the content you publish is ‘cutthroat personified’ in my way of relating from your understanding to get it. Getting it is the hardest process, because I’m not you. But, seeing the world like it is my nationality and yours don’t mean shit to me.
Oh, keep raising us. Blogging is your medium use to raise our world wide consciousness. Or better yet in your simple language, growing balls to say it and fuck the day.
Your understanding reader,
Tshepang.
Thank you Tshepang. And I will.
Never trust a person who constantly tells you they’re honest.
Thanks Adam.
Why did you delete you Twitter and Insta?
What happened?
Does this mean you’ve outgrown your old views on race-mixing? Or you just gonna be child-free like they want us to and leave reproduction to the fat, docile, and easily domesticated? Curious to hear your thoughts.
Personally I’m a bit torn on the subject. Hispanic wife, still has family values, supports me, loyal, doesn’t follow all the western media/propaganda that tries to corrupt any value system you might have. No kids, but part of me thinks I should, partly as a way of fighting back against the self-obsessed society of victims always trying to destroy the things that made america dominant.
Thanks for another fire article. This one was a particularly engaging read.
“Thanks for another fire article. This one was a particularly engaging read.”
Thanks Elboze.
in china there are millions of men who are in marriagable age unable to find a good spouse, not a single fuck is getting.
to get a fuck you have to give something to them.
for being a man is living a luxurious life with cars , girls etc
And most of those men do half-hearted work at their jobs, make excuses and watch tv or play computer games when they get home.
This is not a “theory” or opinion, I see it every single day speaking Mandarin and dealing with these people during my daily life in China.
The local guys I know here in China (here since 2012) who actually read books, work out and improve themselves have NO problem getting girls – even the ones who aren’t rich.
It’s not hard to corner the market when nobody else is trying.
Sure there are gold-diggers, but most women ANYWHERE, prefer a normal guy with potential and unstoppable drive, than a rich no-hoper.
I read this B&D article for the first time over a week ago. Since then, I have had to travel, I’ve worked, I’ve lived my life normally, , but this article has stuck with me. I have thought of it constantly. I go back to re read it from time to time because it has really struck a chord in me, in a profound way that I cannot consciously explain yet. Like most great art, I am able to interpret this piece of writing in different ways. I could see Nick as the fire starter because of the fire inside he’s always had in him which he was able to release through his art that forged his life’s work. I could also see the girl as the fire starter, because she was like the spark that ignited Nick’s ambition and drive and power, and allowed him to be consumed in flames to a new level of being, like a Phoenix.
Maybe I’m looking too much into this, but isn’t that the exact point of art? Either way, I found this article to be profound and moving. Quite beautiful actually.
Thank you Duke.
Hmm…seeing the comments ,i see you have an impact on people i cannot yet understand fully. Your influence seems so abstract, i can only grasp it intuitively and on a personal level only. I guess this is where you stand apart from other ‘bloggers’.
Thanks.
Again you have blown joe averages mind completely out of the water and as usual the normal baffoon reaction seemingly is to be the cup and not the water. How did your love story become confused with a beat down on asian women? Personal attacks and rhetoric about using a pseudonym? This is akin to trying to call out the “Duke” cause he did not want his stage name to be Marion. There is enough liars in your last blog article comments section to join hands and encircle the world. If I must spell it out for some….no I do not think you have been to Vietnam or stood on the beach.
Thanks Paul.
Hi Vic do you want to come to Dallas, TX and go motorcycle riding?
I wouldn’t blame someone for calling this post the ravings of a madman. You won’t get this kind of intensity from a normal 9-5er, thats for sure.
Was your Twitter account suspended?
Can you give any advice on how you met? There are many of us who realize we will not find the traditional girl we want in America. That still leaves the problem of how exactly to find a girl overseas. Any specific and practical advice is appreciated.
Hey Chris,
I’ve lived a similar life to Vic thus far – still grindin’ on the island though (in China since 2012)
Here’s my 2 cents on this, it’s not very complex if you read between the lines of anything ol’ Vic says.
1. Leave the U.S
2. Don’t be a bum (too many people who go to live abroad get into the “beers are only 50 cents here! I’m drinking ten every night!”)
3. Lift weights, eat steaks
4. Read (who we are, how we think and what we know is revealed the moment we open our mouths, so either STFU or read often.)
5. Don’t have one-night-stands with whores.
6.Grind on your passion
With an iron-will and character like this, it’s not difficult to attract a gorgeous girl.
You still need some “game” though, since traditional girls are gonna be too shy to make a move (or even look directly at you).
I have some advice for you, Chris. Get professional help. What you want is an ignorant, obedient slave who knows no better. We outlawed slavery in this country over 150 years ago. What the hell is wrong with you “men”? What do you get out of a relationship of slave master to a traditionally subservient race of women? Hell, run a prostitution ring. You can control your women, they will remain loyal to you because you would have to support them because of course, as PIMP, you would control all the money. You could beat the hell out of them if they steal from you. Or can you just kill Asian women or throw them out like so much rotten garbage after you get through with them & move on to the next victim? In this day & age, are there really women somewhere in the world who think white men or men from the US are gods? What woman in her right mind would put up with what you sexual perverts dish out? And for how long? They may be desperately impoverished & probably hungry enough to marry some idiot just to get to this country. But when they get over here & look around & see how the other half lives, they wise up real fast, divorce you, & there you are, having another affair with Rosy Palm. You people are disgusting.
Deb,
You’re obviously an intelligent woman, but the seething anger thing isn’t going to be of value to you in a relationship. Consider the fact that the attitudes and philosophies being presented by Vic aren’t bad…just different. We all get to choose our own reality, as reality is negotiable, so why not just choose to live and let live?
Or you can continue the bat-shit-crazy ranting…your call : 0
Hey Bro,
You wrote something very intense over here which is extremely beautiful as well. Best of Luck with your lady Vic.
And oh yea, I did enjoy the comments of the haters over here. They do not understand, but the more they hate the blog and more controversy they create, the more you get famous and wealthy ( still remember the HOW I KICKED A FEMINIST’S ASS article from you few years back).
All the best Vic
Sid
growing a six pack aren’t for one geisha girl.
MAN! What a post, This is May 4th-just read my e-mail. Sorry. How are you now? I must say, I was alarmed. I don’t like lies or liars, either. You don’t know this, but my 72-year old husband blew his brains out with a 20-gauge shotgun it the bedroom & I discovered him the next morning. Didn’t hear the shot-the barrel was pressed under his chin. I don’t know why-no note, nothing. We had been arguing, but my God, we were married 30 years. Married couples do quarrel. He needed a pacemaker but wouldn’t get it. His heart was beating about 50 beats per minute, not enough for oxygen-rich blood to get to his brain. He was beginning to slip, forgetting words, etc., but it really wasn’t that bad. Sure, I got impatient with him sometimes, but that’s the way it goes sometimes. If I had it to do over, I sure as hell would do it differently. He was & is my soulmate. Half of me is missing. I blame myself, but at the same time, I’m pissed at him for leaving me alone. I haven’t been alone my entire life. I feel like he betrayed me-he didn’t share a lot with me or anyone. ( The strong, silent type. ) I know loneliness. I know betrayal. My children have all taken advantage of me, my son wanted to have me certified & committed to a mental ward, my oldest daughter’s husband has forbidden her to have anything to do with me, (I WISH some man would forbid me so see my mother!) my son’s girlfriend stole my bank debit card number somehow & paid her utility bills! That was about a grand I couldn’t afford to lose. The bank gave me credit, got their money back from the utilities, the utility companies shut off her utilities, & now she’s afraid to be alone in my presence. She’s just learning what my kids already know-DON’T FUCK WITH ME! So yes, my beautiful child, I know liars, & I can tell when I’m being lied to. Like the song says, “You can’t hide your lyin’ eyes.” My life doesn’t compare to yours, but I’ve been in hell for 7 months. I saw my dead husband (3 months dead) walk to the couch & suffer a heart attack. I pulled him off the couch to the floor, began CPR, called 911, & when they got here, they asked where he was. U told them that he was here just a moment ago, but I didn’t know where he went. Then I saw him at the end of the hall, smirking at me the way he always did-half grin, half smirk. I told them he was there-of course, they couldn’t see him. I kept seeing him, insisting to the police, fire, & emt’s that he was there, in the red flannel shirt he always wears. Finally, one of the ambulance paramedics said he saw him, so then I sat down. He took my blood pressure, said “honey, let’s go to the hospital.” I said, Nope, Don’t need to, Not going. Well, I went. To backtrack, some time before all this, I apparently had a grand mal seizure-I woke up in the floor one night, didn’t know how I got there, didn’t remember getting out of my chair. So, I go to the hospital. On Jan. 6,2017, I weighed 89 lbs. This hallucinating shit happened 3months to the day since his death. In Sep., 2016, I weighed 130 lbs. Go figure. My doc said had I not called 911, I probably would have died. He said my brain was swelling, my chemical imbalance was deadly, & I was lucky to be alive. I’m not so sure. At first, friends, family, all kept close. Promised to keep in touch. LIES, LIARS! I’ve reached out to my “friends”, who can’t talk right now, but will call me back-they have my number. I’ve reached out for the last time. The next time hey will hear anything about me, it will be my obituary. I struggle every day to keep from doing myself in. I have no firearms. Police took the shotgun. I know suicide is cowardly. I’m not a coward. My God, I haven’t lived this damn long, gone through shit I’ve gone through, by being a coward. I’ve never lied my way into or out of anything in my life & it’s too late now. Besides, you have to remember who you told what lie to, & I would never keep it straight. Liars have something to hide-I have nothing to hide. Life is a bitch, sometimes beautiful. Moments. I don’t know how you do it. I’m here in the good old USA, enjoying my freedom (for how long?), & you’re way across the water. I haven’t been here long enough to know what kind of work you talked about, but I can tell it’s important to you. Sounds like you have to block everything & everyone out, & that’s ok. Hell, man, sorry-you don’t need my permission, but you’ve got my understanding. I hope your daughter is safe & well. Easy for me to say, but I don’t think you’re as mean & tough as you want others to believe. I could be wrong. I was once. Anyway, for what it’s worth, I hate lies & liars with a black-hot passion. Had my fill of them. I put my whole self out there, forgetting that people aren’t like me, & I’ve been hurt, too. Hurt so bad I’m past wanting to hurt back. I want to curl up in the fetal position & just let Death come. My Spirit is not yet ready to leave so I’ve got to somehow let my eyes stop mirroring a dead soul & get in touch with the part of my Spirit that is spirited, fun loving, motivated, energized. I just wish I could find someone to tell me how. Can you? Gotta go. Later, man._
You must have hated China, bro.
Nice post anyway. Can feel the intensity comin’ through.
OK, Firestarter! How about more like trying to start a fizzled fart? You will set all liars on fire, so start burning yourself, NICK KELLY! Your entire persona & what you write is complete bullshit. You almost suckered me in, Mr. more like WOODY ALLEN-looking, no dick-having steroid using ass. We all know the pic you posted is a model. You are addicted to Kratom & having sex with ignorant Asian girls. You have to make a lot of money to support your Viagra or Cialis. You are in S.E. Asia because we probably deported you, and good riddance. Maybe you’re there because you are a wanted man here. We have our own Asian, Hispanic, Native American Middle Eastern, Arabian, South American women to choose from. What’s wrong with them?: I’ll tell you. They are EDUCATED &speak English & know better than to put up with a slave master. You are racist. You frown upon inter-racial breeding. If you do, indeed, have a daughter, what the HELL do think her DNA would show? Caucasian, as your pic represents you o be? LIAR, LIAR, PANTS ON FIRE! So, Mr. Kelly, get the gas can & pout it on your head & let your woman who left your stupid ass strike the match for you. I bet she would be glad to do it. Make a video of that. Write a post about that but please, PLEASE stop stealing money from weak-minded, weak-willed people who believe your fictional ( or plagiarized ) bullshit. Your crap about dealing with little white lies & liars hit me like a brick upside my head. Especially when your true identity was outed. The name VICTOR PRIDE says it all. Made up. victor ( for winner ) pride ( you take great pride in what little wealth you have-you haven’t had money long enough to know how to act-it’s called NEW MONEY-. Now, OLD MONEY, for example, knows how to act. They have class, wherever we live, & Baby, class is something you will never have. Pride is one of the deadly sins, “sir”- if you are a sir. I don’t believe anything coming from you.) Like I said, I almost got sucker in by you. Even subscribed, which is what I’m going to remedy as soon as I leave here. Had to dip by big toe in to test the water. But I kept getting a bad vibe. It didn’t ring true, & made no sense. Well, I gained my sense back today, I do have to thank your comments page for that. Oh, yeah, & the Kratom tea recipe. This post is coming from, a strong, White woman, livin’ free & proud in the USA. Vic, Nick, or whoever you are, you need professional help. You may be certifiable. Ladies scare the hell out of you. You need a blank canvas to mold into whatever your sick, demented, perverse mind wants to create. Stay out of the US. Word of warning: watch out for little old ladies. Some young thing’s grandma may go off her nut & blow your balls off for raping hr granddaughter.
Deborah, get help. Good grief.
the reason why guys leave the US is because there is no traditional women at all. Let alone there is no tradition at all, America had swallowed greatly the “feminist” bullshit propaganda. Feminism is one of the most diabolical ideology ever to exist. It is responsible for almost 80% divorce rates in the US. It is responsible for the heavy rise of single mothers and children growing up with no father figure, Also lets not forget the laws that we have. We call our nation the greatest country on earth, really? When our divorce laws are anti-family, anti-male, and anti- marriage. And you expect a sane male to put up with all of that?
I was born and was raise here in the US to sweetheart, and I can tell you that most girls in the US lean towards “bad boys” and this where single moms come from. Good guys that want to bring value ti a girl’s life and start a family, are being squashed in all aspects of society. And you still want a man to out up with that?
I can understand why victor left the US to Asia and I can’t blame him for it. In Asia women have value, society over there have a tradition, a moral code, and a value fir family. This is why men in the us have no option but to leave their comfort zone and find gems somewhere else,
While you American girls fuck every bad boy you meet at a frat party or night club but strongly repulse a descent guy approaching you, good men had already left to explorer other areas of the globe. While you glorify corporate America and be 100,000$ in debt from university, we sane men will be making money from our business ventures and live free.
there you go. Men like victor are DONE with the bullshit.
I’m out.
Damn. You are a true blog artist Vic. #1.
Most Western women especially in the US at best are too good for an empty screw but not good enough for anything long term and meaningful. Most of the time the encounter is more like a 1984 novel. So can one blame someone like Victor doing what he is doing? Looks like his two year return to the US left him very very frustrated. You can definitely feel it in his words. Now if he probably met someone here like the one he is describing in Vietnam maybe the outcome(s) would be different?
Victor is our Hassan ibn Sabbah, but better. Peace God.
no sane person like another person who lies to others.
Why did you leave? A man always have options.
Great stuff Vic.
Is this non-fiction?